Am I a Boring Person?

I know that this may seem random but due to the fact that I have finished all of my work, thoughts like these often drift into my head.

Currently the dulcet sounds of drunk students heading down to the SU are drifting through my open window and I wonder; am I boring?

I am not your typical university student, I don’t really drink, I don’t like to take risks and to be honest I don’t like people… I don’t know whether this is a bad thing or not. I always knew that I was different, but I don’t know if this difference is restricting me or not. Should I be more impulsive or should I stay the same?

Uni life has definitely made me more aware of my ‘abnormality’.

I can’t stand clubs. Surprisingly, the reality of being in a cramped dark space surrounded by hundreds of sweaty drunk strangers grinding up against you isn’t actually that appealing. Not only is it highly unhygienic, but also it is quite expensive when you think about it.

I’d much rather spend my evenings in a pub with friends that I can actually talk to, rather than having to scream above the pounding bass in a nightclub.

If I’m going to be totally honest with you I’d actually prefer to stay at home, with either a cup of tea or some Pimm’s and play Cards Against Humanity…

I don’t really like alcohol.

WOAH WOAH WOAH HOLD THE FUDGING PHONE!!

Shock horror that a 19 year old doesn’t like the taste of alcohol… What a freak right?!

If I am going to have a drink then it will probably either be Archers and Lemonade, Pimm’s (if it’s sunny) or a Rosé spritzer. I don’t see the appeal in drinking so much that you can’t remember anything.

I’ve only been tipsy once at university, that was in the first two weeks and for some reason I wanted it to look like I was a fun person. A bottle of wine, some cherry Sourz and five shots of raspberry vodka later I was dancing like no one was watching. It wasn’t fun though, because at the end of the night I just got sad and cried.

I've never touched a cigarette and I cant stand the smell of them at all, I also have no interest in trying any drugs... I think there might be a problem with me because I doubt that this examples the lifestyle of your average student.

To add to my rejection of student stereotypes I have not yet had a one night stand… actually I’ve not even kissed a guy at uni… oh fudge I haven’t even been on a date in nearly a year.

I fail at life.

Actually, I don’t. If I don’t like anyone in that way then why should I do anything?

I’ve had A LOT of trouble with self-depreciation recently, and I know that it’s stupid and against the whole ‘you’re a strong independent woman, you don’t need a man’ mumbo jumbo, but truthfully I’m quite lonely. I don’t feel like anyone finds me desirable at all, and although I try and work through it sometimes it is tough. I have a few bad experiences jumping around in my brain and I find it seriously difficult to trust anyone.

I get told time and time again that I will meet someone if I go to clubs and bars more often, but why would I want to be with someone who I met somewhere I hate?

In the end though, I’m not going to change myself just so I can break out of singleton prison.

If I could describe my ideal day to you it would contain some of the following features:

-       Going for a walk on my own in the sun.

-       Watching my favourite TV shows, either alone or with my flatmates.

-       Playing Cards Against Humanity.

-       Watching YouTube videos.

-       Going on a day trip with my friends.

-       Going to the cinema.

-       Read a book.

-       Writing blogs.

Nowhere in that list does it say ‘get so fudging drunk that you fall into a ditch and die’ or ‘meet the man of my dreams in a unisex club toilet’…

It just isn’t me.

I’ve had people tell me that I am boring before, and I have believed them. To some extent I still do, but just because I am boring in the opinion of many does not mean I am boring to everyone.